equally .. on anger …
I learned early on that the most dangerous emotion you could have is anger, I learned this because at some point in my youth, I realized that anger fueled many of my actions, and I got into a good amount of bad situations because of anger. But the problem was I didn’t get the why and I didn’t understand the mechanics of the emotion…I did know that I was angry at the things that happened in my life and that anger did influence certain choices. Sure there were other emotions that charged other choices, but anger was the one that seemed to drive me in many directions. What I didn’t understand was the why these choices were turning out the way they did.
I chose to create a dogma to live by, history’s great teachers, were my guides and I devoured their teachings, reading the material over and over…
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on anger …
Meditation arises every moment.
Emotion sparks: Rage!
Most people (including me) often attempt to push anger away, thinking it should disappear NOW. Shame on it for arising. (The ego spouts judgments like: if I were just wiser, more spiritual, a better person…this feeling would not, should not, arise.)
Today I simply watched rage arise with its unexpected paralyzing force.
Fury, sparks, wild anger!
Blue Cross and the hospital–demons, both! How dare they bill us for $2,479.00 yet again when we’ve met our $6,000.00 deductible? How dare, how dare? Have been on the phone hours already with hospital and insurance company alike and everyone agrees it’s inaccurate. The latest kind & lovely representatives assured a re-billing would solve this problem once and for all.
Yet, this morning, horrors: another Blue Cross bill for the same amount!
Pure, hot, white.
Meditation arose simultaneously to watch, to feel, to deeply…
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